Between looking for jobs (now that I can), writing cover letters and aimlessly wandering around and ending up in the kitchen (always always), I haven’t been able to draw as much as I want to. Shame on me? Not really. I have been writing a lot more (though I don’t post every thing I write) and I’ve genuinely been trying to do things that make me very uncomfortable. For example, I start conversations. I am 100% socially awkward and if it’s just me and another person I’m not too familiar with, I freeze. I think of a thousand questions but they never make it past my cerebral cortex. Instead, I just smile like I inhaled aerosol fumes before walking through the door.
A lot of people in the US are very nice. They always greet you or even strike up a conversation instead of just staring you down like many Indian pig males and aunties. So instead of being the way I usually am (and not for my own good), I pretend I’m the best person in the world. A person that you wouldn’t need to talk to 12 times to realise she’s not a clam. So far so good. I’m not getting dirty looks either. I guess I hide cat lady very well.
Deep deep down in the depths of my soul. Don’t worry, it’s always going to be there.
Stephanie says
Anyone would be oh so lucky to have a conversation with you. I’m pretty awkward myself, and way too shy for my own good. I applaud you for stepping out of your comfort zone.
Thanks for the read. Always a pleasure.
egeedee says
Back in India, strangers don’t really talk to you unless they’re like my dad. Plus, I’m a lot more nervous anyway. I’m just getting used to being around Americans…I feel very exposed because who knows what’s appropriate to say here? And then if they don’t understand my accent, I have to repeat over and over blahhh.
But I’m getting better and with no help from alcohol!
egeedee says
Thank you too, Stephanie! Hope you and the family are enjoying your adventures.
dollyandoatmeal says
you’re such a beautiful writer. i can honestly say that i look forward to your posts and i love reading them. plus, your illustrations are so super cute. i’m a fan.
egeedee says
You’re so sweet. I swear I say the same about you. Your writing has a very comforting quality..almost hug-like. I think those are the best kind of food writers because you can sense the honesty in their craft.
I’m so glad I have you as a reader.
dollyandoatmeal says
that’s very sweet of you to say. much thanks.